Zombie!

21.097km again
the sweet, slow and steady slumber..

Hello Sri!!
(no Sir, the marks on me fingertips are from playing guitar)

29th Jan - weened off anxiety pills
31st Jan - expected end of my cough prescription
1st Feb - should finally get new glasses
2nd Feb - Alan Parsons!
3rd Feb - Walter Trout!!
4th Feb - Buddy Guy!!!

memoirs

"One thing is for certain, a horrific chapter in Iraqi history has been closed." - Dubya Bush

"Most issues arise because one incessantly expects others to be like one's self. One must recognize individuality, accept it, and finally expect it!" - Swami Something

"Think I'm just tired of living."
"But you may still have 30 more years to go."
"I know. And it worries me." - with the Other

"The course only doesn't admit those suffering from clinical depression."
"But how would one know.. like, beforehand?"
"Well, you just have to be true to yourself." - from a colleague

"The more I think about it, I realize all this religion is just made up." - Ashley

"I genuinely want to be a Believer. And I truly admire those that are. Like Mouse.."
"It's because you don't have faith in other people." - with a colleague

"Why wouldn't I want to work?! I love my job!!!" - Daddo

Thirty

You ask on the years gone by,
and regrets that must have add.
Whether three decades have wearied me dry,
on the dreams I must have had.

As if birthdays were moments of reflection
for all one's work undone!
Never have I dwelt on past satisfaction -
I weary only for the times to come!!

Our Haiku - II

E9 days,
Our ways,
No sunrays,
Curtains drawn, always
- the other bojangles

Our Haiku - I

These days are so tight,
Have reached mechanical heights
Aint complaining my friend
Its just that all this is so different (from the lives we used to live)
- the other bojangles

To Live

Life is brief.
Fall in love, maidens,
before the crimson bloom fades from your lips,
before the tides of passion cool within you,
for those of you who know no tomorrow.

Life is brief.
Fall in love, maidens,
before your raven tresses begin to fade,
before the flames in your hearts flicker and die,
for those to whom today will never return.


(from Akira Kurosawa's Ikiru)

pg34 material

but may be I'll post when fed up of being me.

(text/plain)

it's getting bad again
perhaps we've outlived ourselves

" To lay me down
In silence easy
To be born again
In another world.. " - Van Morrison, Astral Weeks

if

Everyone's been working a lot - saturdays, sundays, independence days - wondering whether they get the satisfaction.. or may be it comes only when something is finished.. or when it's moving towards some line.. Osho says the pay alleviates the pointless - may be things would be brighter if there was a need. May be thats why people go about creating them.

cancelled tomorrow's class

Got the Most Stable Employee award today (a Shopper's Stop gift voucher) for doing the same thing for over a year. Dunno if it's a good or bad thing.. but the Mouse should be pleased.

Jackson Pollock

"If people would leave most of their stuff at home and just look at the paintings, I don't think they'd have any trouble enjoying them. It's like looking at a bed of flowers – you don't tear your hair out over what it means." (from the movie)

Also salary came in today and along with it the feeling that may be I can do this afterall.

yet another day

Working day. Others at lunch, me at Shravan (ekadashi today, ergo 11 days have already passed). Also thanks to the underground man, I think I even understand why.

a wise man leaves his feelings behind,
a kind man cannot but be kind..

(but that's work related, and the Others are getting back)

for little Rohit's art-book

written during my homeward train ride:

To Friendship

When I'm wearied, down, feeling low or sore
When I cannot see the light anymore
You knock unexpected at my door
And guide me safe to the shore.

And when I'm shiny, light, gay and high
(for happiness needs not a reason why)
You gift me wings, help me fly
Soar the heavens and touch the sky!

satday at work

Treat everything as an adventure, I overheard them say.
But it gets harder when you know they were right and you were wrong.

" So leave the ways that are making you be
what you really dont want to be.
Leave the ways that are making you love
what you really dont want to love." - Nick Drake

so that I remember

3rd june - solicited by gay fellow (already forgot his name). But it'll take more than one to get me cut my hair.

3rd july - got pushed & fell off the local train. Experienced Bombay's famous apathy and also the comfort of kneecaps!

11th july - another sad day for the city (ride with a totally deaf yet very talkative rickshaw driver).